i really have to control my temper against my dad. he ask me qns nicely.. and i just get outta control and attitude him back. damn it i wonder why.. maybe because its the past things that might have happened that made me react this way. and today i was online a few mins ago, just doing nothing listening songs.. he told me that he wanna use the com for some business; i just started to get pissed on the spot. its just like a button that changed my mood on the spot. hmm.. i really have to control it. now i really wish to say sorry to him for being mad. but i know i can't bring myself to say it. sorry seems to be the hardest word. and i got this guilt feeling in me that i shouldn't have reacted as an asshole son.
daddy i'm sorry.
i'll try to change my temper. =)
im 98% done with my VB proj and i've got nth much to do these days. so kinda really getting bored with life. so firstly, i needa start studying... thinking about studies, exams are around the corner and seriously, face it.. its not such a nightmare. we all got 5 days break after each paper and its really nothing much to study about. just work thru the notes and all set and ready. why worry? hahha..
my hair's a mushroom and i seriously need a cut. maybe sat. my mind's a mess from all the boring life. if i got nothing to think about, i always start to remember about the past. and sometimes wonder on it why it happened, smile a glance, and realised things move on. so now i guess i got a long long way to go, and im being such an emo. so?
Now and then my mind runs into your old memory
But it ain't quite as big a deal as it used to be
Another ditch in the road
You keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Wonder how I ever made it through
Savage Garden - Two Beds & A Coffee Machine
i really have to control my temper against my dad. he ask me qns nicely.. and i just get outta control and attitude him back. damn it i wonder why.. maybe because its the past things that might have happened that made me react this way. and today i was online a few mins ago, just doing nothing listening songs.. he told me that he wanna use the com for some business; i just started to get pissed on the spot. its just like a button that changed my mood on the spot. hmm.. i really have to control it. now i really wish to say sorry to him for being mad. but i know i can't bring myself to say it. sorry seems to be the hardest word. and i got this guilt feeling in me that i shouldn't have reacted as an asshole son.
daddy i'm sorry.
i'll try to change my temper. =)
im 98% done with my VB proj and i've got nth much to do these days. so kinda really getting bored with life. so firstly, i needa start studying... thinking about studies, exams are around the corner and seriously, face it.. its not such a nightmare. we all got 5 days break after each paper and its really nothing much to study about. just work thru the notes and all set and ready. why worry? hahha..
my hair's a mushroom and i seriously need a cut. maybe sat. my mind's a mess from all the boring life. if i got nothing to think about, i always start to remember about the past. and sometimes wonder on it why it happened, smile a glance, and realised things move on. so now i guess i got a long long way to go, and im being such an emo. so?
Now and then my mind runs into your old memory
But it ain't quite as big a deal as it used to be